There are two things in my life that I know without doubt, that I was meant to be a wife to the hubs and a mom to turtle. I often say that I was blessed with the exact child that I was meant to have, we have very similar temperaments and through him I constantly gain a better sense of my strengths and flaws. Over the past month turtle has begun to mature and grow a lot. He has shown a greater sense of self (if at all possible) as well as a greater self control and expression. I find that daily he is using my logic and reasoning on me, which is frustrating and hilarious all at once. This week he had to have blood drawn (one of the few things which has paralyzed me with fear in the past). Turtle knocked it out without a tear or a fight. I find my self in awe, proud, and jealous of his bravery all at the same time.
One way turtle and I greatly differ is our level of activity. Turtle is action driven, his body is constantly in motion, and he often seeks full body movement and impact. I on the other hand could sit in the bed all day watching tv (and have on many an occasion pre turtle). I wouldn’t say that I am necessarily sedentary, but I have established some very sedentary habits. I was initially planning to share an especially frustrating moment during which my sedentary habits impacted my parenting, but now realize that there is an even deeper message at play. As I began typing this I realized that one of the many reasons I am blessed to be the mother to this boy child is to break out of those patterns. I now realize the message I have been sending to turtle has been in service of my own sedentary habits and is contrary to his own internal need for movement and action. As a therapist I know that when we get message from our caregivers (intentionally or otherwise) which are contrary to our own internal drive self doubt can be created. This week turtle has blessed me by tagging along on my 6am(ish) workouts. Through these early morning times I am able to send the message that being active is not just ok it’s important and a worthy use of my time and energy.
So here on the day of mothers, I salute my child for helping me to break out of my habits and be the absolute best version of myself that I possible can be. I am so absolutely humbled and thankful to all of those who have been able to support my journey through words of encouragement and financial contributions. I am one month away from my race and nine days and $320 away from my fundraising goal. That means that I both have met 58% of my fundraising goal and still need everyone’s help.
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